After looking at the ultrasound, my doctor determined that I had retained some material that she felt should be removed, so I underwent a D&C around noon. There were no complications and no pain at all so far, and I was asleep the entire time. Jarrod says it took about 20 minutes. I feel better already and just have to take it easy for a couple of days and return for a checkup in 2 weeks. Thanks for your prayers, everybody.
When I asked about trying to conceive again, Dr. Bergstrom said we could start when my normal cycle resumes in about a month if we wanted, so that was encouraging. I’m sure we’ll be on pins and needles if and when we do become pregnant again, but we would still like to try for one more Beckman.
For now, we would both be happy just to get a good night’s sleep and wake up to a new day tomorrow.
Without getting into the details, I miscarried at home late last night between 1-4 am. The doctor seems to think from our conversation this morning that it may have been a complete m/c, but she will do a sonogram tomorrow morning to see if I still need a D&C. I have been told to stay off of my feet as much as possible and drink plenty of fluids to rehydrate myself. I have lost 5 pounds since Wednesday and 3 pounds in the last 24 hrs, so I have to make sure I follow her directions.
Thanks always for the thoughts and prayers. We will hopefully be able to update the site tomorrow when we have more information.
I am scheduled for a D&C on Monday at noon. Please pray for us and know how thankful we are for all of you. We have been greatly comforted by the countless emails, messages, calls, and prayers that have come our way since Wednesday.
We have not responded to everyone individually, but please know how much it has all meant to us.
God is showing us, through all of you and through our wonderful Gaby Kate, that we are more blessed than we could have imagined. We look ahead and imagine the day that we will meet our perfect, healthy baby in heaven.
Some of you will have already been contacted by us via phone. For those of you finding out this way, we sincerely apologize, but after about a half dozen phone calls, we simply couldn’t keep going.
Kristi and I went for a routine sonogram this morning and were devastated to discover that our little Beckman 2.0′s heart had stopped beating. It happened nearly a week ago. The discovery took us completely by surprise as Kristi has exhibited no miscarriage symptoms. We are trying to schedule a D & C as early as we can to minimize the risk of complications and bleeding, should the symptoms begin to manifest.
Clearly we are saddened and shocked by the news. Two weeks ago, the heartbeat was strong and we had an incredibly favorable outlook. The deafening quiet of its little heartbeat, now stilled, was simply overwhelming for both of us.
We appreciate and feel the love of all of our friends and family who have sent emails, called, and given us immeasurable support in this difficult time. We struggle with every kind of emotion possible, from sadness to guilt to uncertainty. We appreciate your continued prayers for us as we struggle out of this dark tunnel and try to figure out what God’s voice is telling us through this pain.
On August 8th, the day I discovered we were expecting again, my hcg (pregnancy hormone) was 25. As of last Wednesday, September 3rd, this number had become 40,539. This is not a made-up exaggerated number, it is actually 1621 times higher than the first number.
This time around, the mood swings, fatigue, and food cravings have had their way with me. This behavioral change has, however, helped rid our house of unsuspecting telemarketers who have had the misfortune of calling during one of my moods and have quickly been told that calling my house again would not be wise (as if they would have wanted to anyway).
I am happy to report that I seem to be coming out of the funk that has been the last 3 weeks. The last couple of days, I have felt less like the victim of a violent street crime and more like a mom and mom-to-be with pants that don’t fit anymore. I also seem to be unable to pass up any restaurant that sells eggrolls without buying a few and ravenously eating them in the car before I get home. Eggrolls have become more wondrous and delicious than I could have imagined.
We also had another sonogram this week (pic to be posted soon) and were able to see that 2 little arms and 2 little legs have popped out on our little bean and Beckman v2.0 is now 1.85 cm long. Its little heart rate is 174 beats per minute and the doctor said that everything looks perfect!
In GK news, our little angel started preschool this week (pic also coming soon). So far, so good. And for two mornings a week, there is a high probability that the laundry and dishes will be clean! She seems to be enjoying herself and wearing herself out enough to take a REALLY good nap when she gets home. She is also accepting my bribes and saving all of her Tuesday/Thursday pooping for her preschool teachers. Good job, Gaby Kate!
We have confirmed with a sonogram that we are indeed having only one child next spring, but my belly seems to be poking out already. I had Jarrod take pics at exactly 5, 6, and 7 weeks and I just compared them tonight. Looks like the days of regular jeans (and my waistline) are quickly coming to an end!
7 weeks down, 31+ weeks go to. Kristi is tired, but good, and we heard a strong 150+ heartbeat at the last sonogram, so we’re off to a great start.
Elbows are forming
Fingers are starting to develop
Feet are starting to appear with tiny notches for the toes
Ears eyes and nose are starting to appear
Intestines are starting to form in the umbilical cord
Teeth are beginning to develop under the gums
We’re now struggling with whether or not to move or to remodel the existing house. We love the house we have, but we only have 3 bedrooms. Since v2.0 will take up the tech/office space if we stay, we’ll have to either relocate all of that to the garage or the back porch….or move. The thought of us moving makes me want to set the entire house on fire. So…we’ve got more thinking to do. If any of you have any thoughts to share on that, we’d certainly appreciate it
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My honey and I finally broke down and created Facebook accounts this last week. Much of it is silliness that I’ll probably never use. (Who needs to know what I’m doing every single second of the day?) It has been interesting, though, reconnecting with people I haven’t seen in a long time. It is also great for keeping up with The Cato now that she is in college.
Here is a classic from the Seasame Street of the 70s. I distinctly remember this bit as a child, and love the music by Philip Glass. You can also see the distinctive “starburst” technique, used in many of the character/graphic generators of that era.
No post would be complete, of course, without some pics of the GK. Here are some great ones from a few days ago when she went to Gran and Papa’s house.
